By definition
Loss is "the fact or process of losing something or someone. Also known as "the state or feeling of grief when deprived of someone or something with value."
To me that is just about the perfect way to explain it. As I sit here and try to think of a better way to explain it i can't. When I sit and think about loss I think about the empty void that is not only in my heart but in my soul. Void can stand for completely empty when used as an adjective, which I thing is the best way to use it in this situation. I believe the void is what makes us feel emptiness and blank. I know I feel both of these things and as time goes on they don't just get better. It's a very slow healing process and for me it just seems to be getting worse. I know you can't always control how you feel, but I believe in order to make it better faster I need to find something to fill that void and I'm not quite really sure what that is. As I mentioned before that I started seeing a psychiatrist and it has helped. In only two sessions it has already helped me stop taking my anger out on my daughter. I know it's not her fault that she has ADHD or that I'mm trying to cope with something she doesn't understand.
Talking to a 4 year old will let you know what it's like to not have a care in the world, but also will show how it's nice to still be young enough to not be bothered by things that are sometimes life halting to use. I love her to death, but she has no problem telling complete strangers that her grandma died, I know she doesn't understand that it upsets me, because it brings back a little more pain every time. She though is not old enough to understand, because she will then turn around and ask me why she died or how come she hasn't come back as a zombie yet. lol That always makes me giggle. He brother that is 8, never brings it up, kind of like it didn't happen. Almost as though he didn't know my mother and in which case he really didn't, but if his sister mentions it to him you can see him tear up. Even though he didn't know her well it still upsets him. He is my sensitive guy like his Momma and very easy to set off like both his parents. My oldest which is 12, well I'm not sure how he handles it. He never says a word about it, just always memories from her house when he was little, but nothing about her being gone. He is Autistic and I love him for it more and more all the time. He is my eye opener to new things though.
Enough about me, I wanted to give you a few sites that may be able to help you out during this time . These are just some I have found that might be useful to you.
If your looking for someone to talk to you can check out https://www.mastersincounseling.org/loss-grief-bereavement.html
If you would like some more information or to learn of some of the myths and facts about grieving this is a good site. http://www.helpguide.org/articles/grief-loss/coping-with-grief-and-loss.htm
If you'd like to create a tribute for someone you can go here..
http://www.muchloved.com/gateway/death-of-a-loved-one.htm
ALWAYS REMEMBER THIS!!!!
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